Life’s Predicament
Sometimes God gives us problem so that we go through the battle and we emerge being stronger and more mature.
But have you wondered why sometimes he gives us ALL the worries at a go? Like now?
Is it to test my threshold of pain and distress?
Or is it just fated to be this way and then I have to find a solution for the mess myself? If its fated, can you fast forward my life because I want to see what I did right or going to do wrong in future, because I for sure as hell cannot afford to make a simple mistake.
Life is like that lah huh. Throw all the shit to the fan and see which is stuck.
Throw all the troubles to me and see if i can solve every single piece of it? And then learn? What, have I not learnt enough!
Last time in school, after school in fact, I used to hang out at Northpoint in sch attire and watch boys. I outgrew that. Now I let them watch me. Tee Hee Hee.
Last time in tertiary, I used every opportunity to stay out late and used tons of excuses so I can hang out at clubs every wed and sat so I can be seen as COOL. I outgrew that. Now you’re lucky if I pay my respect to the clubs twice a month.
Last time I had troubles I ran to Mak or I simply ran away from it, not wanting to solve and cross my fingers so that it would go away! Well … I did not really outgrew that. In fact the problems outgrew me! Its bigger, worse and unsolvable! Why can’t the one thing that HAVE TO GO AWAY go away for once! I did not invite trouble, so why did trouble come to me ……..
