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Someone who doesn’t hog the covers at night.

Someone who spends 2 hours MAKING a birthday card from scratch, a hand-made picture stain-glass frame and a personalized wood-framed mirror.

Someone who believes effort is what matters, not how much the gift is.

Someone who treasures REAL friendship and true love.

Someone hopelessly romantic and would sacrifice anything for HE who’s only worth so much effort.

And someone who’ll stand on the pedestal beside HIM whom I love.

I’ll do anything for him whom I treasure, just remind him not to betray my trust. Not once. I will never trust anyone who ever lied, even if its once.

When life becomes normal, it means its reverted back to "sleep, work, eat, work a bit more and maybe a cuppa or dinner with love ones" …

I don’t know about you guys, but when I went back to work from a 1 month sick leave, I suddenly feel that 24 hours in a day is never enough and I wondered how I lived with it for the past few years.

That’s because within this 24 hours, you can either get something done and speed up your process of retiring comfortable or whatever your long term goal is OR you can just lounge around and waste it and wait for the next 24 hours to come alone so you can TRY this time to use it wisely.

When I was on leave and practically and literally did nothing at home, I came to realise that its time to take this opportunity to take a break. Rest & Relax and think of nothing stressful.This break came too soon. But still, I never regret it. 

Now when i get back to work, on the first day, I thought I couldn’t handle a tiny weeny bit of stress at all. I started to panic when I went for outreach and hand out flyers. I started to panic when my book was still empty at 3pm. I started to panic when I had no sales at 7pm.

Crazy ain’t it? The body just automatically tuned into the momentum of work work work stress stress stress.

Now, I have 24 hours everyday. 8 hours (or lesser) sleeping. Throw in a shameful 3 hours for the long relaxing shower after work and 15mins in a sauna and for vanity stuff and I am left with 13 hours. Work takes up at least 9 hours. and the travelling to and from work at least 2 hours in a day. Leaves me with 2 hours.

2 hours to myself. To do what? Rest? Quick Nap? Quickie? (Hehe) And I realised there’s not time to rest. Writing this takes up at least 15 mins. Watched a bit of tv later. And well ….

You must be thinking why in the world I choose to write about such a simple and boring but yet ESSENTIAL topic right?

That is because I just believe all of us should treasure the time we have in 1 day. And that it is also OKAY to take a few hours/days to chill, relax, do nothing and have a well-overdued damn good rest (That’s for you Nizam).

Chores not important, fuck it. Those who don’t deserve your time, get them to fuck off. However still spend time doing proper work, building up your day, learnign new things everyday and working towards that next holiday or better life that you wish for. It’s definitely a rat race but its worth living for if you get what u dream of in the end after all the hardwork(and a bit of rest here & there hehe).

So how did you spend your day today?

P/s: I seek solitude and peace from my anger or my worries by venting it out in the form of typing blog/journals furiously away …. Its much better anger/stress management than jumping off 12th floor. http://www.zorpia.com/hayati

Last night, 18 Oct 06, the last night of ‘freedom’ was a fabu-rrific night!

We rock the socks of everyone in the club …

You must be wondering what am I talking about?

Well, it was my last night of freedom and last day for the manager and also a belated birthday for me and boyfriend so we decided to rrrrrrrockkkkk ATTICA.

First and foremost, i did some shopping for Cheng (manager). A pair of Aldo shoes, Bruce Lee’s book and ‘5 People you meet in Heaven’ book.

Then we headed to Cafe Iguana to have lots and lots of margaritas. There was ‘horny toad’ margarita which pretty much sucked. There was this freaking huge purple-ish margarita which they call Macho or something like that. And Mango Margaritas. Yummy. The last is the best!

Then we headed to ATTICA and opened a bottle of Chivas. Before we even got to it, I ordered a round of Tequila Shots. Yeah, lets kickstart the parrrrty I thought. Glasses later, we headed to the dancefloor. We were happily grinding everyone and anyone.

After shaking our booties and jiggling our boobies, we went back for like 4-5 more rounds of tequila shots. And order ANOTHER btl of Chivas.

Ok here’s where the story gets complicated.

I have been swiping my card for everything so far and then, the waiter said "Sorry yr card was declined". I FROZE IN MY SWEATY PANTS AND WAS ALMOST SOBER FOR A MINUTE! The max usage for the card was $2000 a day, don’t he dare tell me I have reached my limit.

Not to be stopped by such ‘frivolous’ matter, Anita paid for us.

Plus another Tequila BOTTLE. (Have u counted how many bottles so far?)

And thats it .. From there, my memory was like a very old movie where scenes and times in my life that night goes missing. Yeah … But at least i didnt puke AROUND (haha, not this time) or left early like a pussy.

Ooops! Heh!

And then I dragged my sorry ass to work and exchanged stories with my colleagues …. The misssing parts of my memory, they help me fill in ….

Pictures will be up soon! Just wait for it!

The title sounds corny. I know. Pardon me.

Okay this is for Karen and those clueless.

Well, I had a 15cm cyst growing in my right ovary and I had to get it remove. (Read Post Operation Blog to find out what happen to me during hospitalization hehe)

Well, every woman has a chance at ovarian cyst but cyst can also grow anywhere so even the male species are not spared.

"What is an ovarian cyst?

An ovarian cyst is a fluid-filled sac in the ovary. Many cysts are completely normal. These are called functional cysts. They occur as a result of ovulation (the release of an egg from the ovary). Functional cysts normally shrink over time, usually in about 1 to 3 months.

If the cyst doesn’t go away after several menstrual periods, if it gets larger or if it doesn’t look like a functional cyst on the sonogram, your doctor may want you to have an operation to remove it. "

Anyway for my dear lady friends out there, although I do not have much symptoms for cyst and I happened to chance on it, i did some research about the symptoms so if you happen to feel any of the below-mentioned, please go for a check with a gynaecologist.

"Symptoms of an ovarian cyst, may include:

• Menstrual irregularities
• Pelvic pain, a constant or intermittent dull ache that may radiate to your lower back and thighs
• Pelvic pain shortly before your period begins or just before it ends
• Pelvic pain during intercourse (dyspareunia)
• Nausea, vomiting or breast tenderness similar to that experienced during pregnancy
• Fullness or heaviness in your abdomen
• Pressure on your rectum or bladder, difficulty emptying your bladder completely "

If you noticed, the symptoms can not be much different from the regular menstrual cramps. The best is to go for yearly checkup with your docs…..

We women sure do get into a lot of trouble. Whether we want it or not.

So take care my lady friends out there.

By the way I hope I am not scaring all of you and also I am not working on commission for any gynae (hehe). Purely out of concern for my friends.

P/S: Thanks Sharon, Anita and Karen for leaving a note earlier in the blog.